work like crazy

After half year break, back to work for about half year with normal route, and now, the hard part, need to do extra days because not enough man power. Really feel like crazy and tired. But, what to do, had to work to earn money and also, already get rest for half year in the end of last year until early of this year.

LONG off day. holiday.

I think it is crazy for a worker to getting about half a year holiday but still get the pay. I am the one. Even though the company only pay my basic but it is more than enough for me to continue my living without any worry. I am not working since last year middle August until now, my company still got no work for me. In my mind, this really like a very big gift. Thanks God. Hope I did use my time as per Gods desire.

Thanks God for a peaceful year.

Already 1 year not writing any blog. Busy with family especially still worry my wife condition. Cancer is a kind of sickness that can come back even though doctor say 100% recover. So, must keep her emotion in good mood as possible. So, after last chemotherapy treatment on last year end, my wife so far have no sign of re-occurrence of cancer. Really thanks God.

Hope by next year, I can free a bit myself from family, and start to serve church more. Any way, thanks for those who remember me in pray. Thanks.

back home tomorrow.. thanks God.

Before I arrive here yesterday, I already pray for fast going back home. My wife going to admit hospital again this Saturday, according to doctor, last chemotherapy. My family need me. Thanks God, this morning, my night man tell me, if only 1 man allow to go back, he agree to stay without I asking from him. Then, this afternoon, saw the passenger list, my night man is inside the list.

So, I no need to ask my night man and straight go to request from our boss here and he agreed also. Really thanks God. Come here yesterday and can go back tomorrow. Thanks God arrangement for everything.

Push to work !!!!

My wife still under go chemotherapy. I feel heavy to let her alone and also my 2nd baby daughter at home without capable and reliable people to take care of her. But, what I can do. I already off for 2 months. If not offshore company, I believe I had been set out. I would not be still get my basic payment. But, because of company care and we need to focus on job while working offshore, company let me rest at home to take care family.

But, after about 1 and half month of rest, company ask for unpaid leave. I really don't mind to take as I mention to my manager before. So, I apply whole December for unpaid leave which means I willnot get any money for end of December. But, that is fair, as I not working and I need time for my poor family, wife undergo chemotherapy, get in hospital and discharge for rest for few day and admit again. No body take care my 2nd daughter who are just 1 and half years old.

My youngest baby daughter who are just 6 months old now. I already let go to baby sister to take care 24 hours. My eldest daughter is take care by my father in law and mother in law. Mother in law need to work day time. Father in law is 1 hand handicap after stroke.

But, still, my company call me up for help. They need me to come out to replace people. They already cancelled my leave even thought now time, my company really need to save money as the economy down time.

As company already give so much help, I decided to help. So, I were here.

But, thanks God for many many thing.

1st, I were ask to work on last Wednesday, 10 Dec. But, 2 days before that, I try to let my 2nd daughter under care of baby sister. She crying non stop and baby sister call me to take her back. In the same time, my colleague call me to cancel my trip to relieve him. Really thanks God for that. My wife was admitted to Hospital by 9 Dec and discharge on 13 Dec. According to Doctor, this is her 2nd last chemo. She really hope that I can stay until she finish last chemo then go to work. But, office call on 13 Dec afternoon after she discharge from hospital. Need me to relieve again. Operation change again.

I have to accept as company already help me alot. After bargaining, I was able to delay 1 day to today, 15 Dec to come out to rig to work.

God bless me again. As I know nothing and arrive here, I get information that, the rig going to finish soon. I will be back to town on the coming Wednesday or Firday, that is before my wife undergo last chemo on Saturday, 20 Dec. That means I will be able to take care 2nd daughter after that. Thanks God.

Any way, I pray for the operation really smooth and no more accident again. Hope everything okay and can go back as plan. Pray to God.

wife infected uterus cancer...

after 1 month delivered a normal baby, my wife start un-normal bleeding. They though is period come but too much bleeding until she admitted to hospital. doctors not sure what is the cause and keep observe and last operation to get the sample tissue from her uterus.

i just get the lab test result and confirm Gestational choriocarcinoma tissue. means uterus cancer. i am sad about it. but, what to do. pray to God to give me strength to face all this thing. hope wife will recover soon.

Thanks God..My 9 Month baby fall down from stair

I think I should record it down as a memory to thanks God for His miracle.

It is not happen on today, but, 1 month ago, January 08.

The way to stair is equip with a simple door to prevent baby to go in. Just a piece of plywood and got lock on it. And also, I putting a piece of sticking bar to allow the door stick together after the door been close. But that day, before I put my 9 months baby into the baby chair, I already checked that the door is close and locked properly. Then I start go for enjoy myself (playing pc game just sit near by) and let her play with nephew who is about 6 years old.

After a while, my father-in-law come back. He open the lock, open the 'door' then, he slap the door to close it. Me myself enjoy playing pc and nephew sleep at the floor. Father in law come back and not not the door, assuming the door is close properly with the slap and stick together as the sticker bar is there without lock it back. But, unfortunately, the door is not close properly. The force of slap make the door reflect back rather than stick there. (he only have 1 hand movable after hit by stroke disease)

No one aware about it. Then, accident take place. That time is about 4:30pm, week day, wife still working. My baby go with her baby chair to the door, use her hand to open it wider and fall down to the bottom of the stair. The stair is not a corner type, it is direct from 1st floor to Ground floor type. No corner at the middle. So, she only will fall from top which is 1st floor to ground floor. Non stop. Then crying. Then we aware of it.

Too late, accident already happen. Miracle happen. The baby look like no injure at all. No bloody, no much surface harm. Only keep crying.

Without waiting long, even without any outside sickness, I send her to nearby child specialist clinic. The doctor check her and found nothing. No medicine been given. Only advise us (me and wife, as I meet my wife on my way to clinic), if she got high fever or any abnormal symptom tonight, send her direct to General Hospital. Nothing have happen that night, only a bit fever.

The next day, I bring her to other child specialist clinic to check the fever. We informed doctor about what happen yesterday. Doctor did a physical checking and only give fever medicine.

As I will leave Miri on the coming Sunday, I decided to go for a brain scanning to check any damage to the brain. And yet, found nothing. After 1 month, the baby still normal. So, it is really miracle as the stair is very high, about 12 ft plus. And the baby only 9 months plus old.

As a normal person, a normal case, even a man also, it may cause serious injury. But, a 9 months old baby facing nothing serious. Only fever because of surprise.

So, only can say, thanks God for protect my daughter because of my careless. Thanks God.

Special right for POOR.

Currently, I saw a lot of new about the Special right for Malay. People say this is unfair. But, Malay say, if you as poor as us, then, you will not say so.

So, if we change the law from special right for Malay to Special Right for POOR. Will Malay agree also ??

I thinking about it is because I heard that a lot of Malay is very RICH. And they getting more Rich because of the law of Special Right to Malay. They mis-use this law i think. And the POOR Malay is continue poor because they not getting benefit from it.

Beside that, the Malaysian's Indian are getting angry also because they are POOR. Poor until that they dare to go demanstration even thought warn by many party.

So, if we change the law from Malay to POOR. I think it will benefit all Malaysian who are POOR. Instead of keep Benefit the RICH Malay. The RICH become more RICH and the POOR become More poor. In the end, our country will become like our neighbour country, Indonesia. Then, the reformation will happen like what is happen at Indonesia.

The big reformation will really affect our country and need really long time to recover. So, I really hope this will not happen.

I write this message is not to make people angry but really want to know your idea. No matter who you are and what race you are. Hope you not get angry with it but think rationally. I hope to get comment from every one also.

By the way, I am not politician and I have nothing related to Politic. Just a commom people who love his country, Malaysia. Hope we can together build the country for the future of Malaysian. No racial and live in peace and modern.

don't know what happening to pc..cant type chinese..

I currently using notebook, but, recently cant type chinese character. duno why.. anybody have any idea ?? look like it happen after my fren install the Nero burner.. I using window to switch between English & chinese, use Alt+Shift key. But now, this not working.. any one can help to solve the problem .. pls

傻与不傻。。

人说我傻，我不傻。。
人说我不傻，我有时有很傻。。
傻与不傻。。。只有事后才会知道。。
最重要的在大事上不要傻。。 小事糊涂， 大事谨慎。。
不要做糊涂人，要做智慧人。。

没有时间写blog了

越来越没时间写和看了。。太太又怀孕了。 不在计划之内。。。唉， 有点不知如何是好。。。。不过最近还是忙孩子的事多。。。

这个部落可能会成为古董了。。。。

工作狂。

有时，会怀疑，自己是不是工作狂。。因为，工作时，我很难会去分心其他的东西。。
有时，很难入睡。。头脑一直在想工作的事。。哎哎哎。。。

又工作了。

本来，以为装了NJ COM， 会写写点东西。但，不知为什么， 家人一个轮一个病到。。自己也病倒2天。。
病好了又到时间开工了。。 哎，时间真快。。
刚到船上有时忙得时间。没空没空。。。

终于， 这几天比较好一些。。

工作了一个星期，又想家了。孩子晚上不爱睡觉，太太又白天要工作。。哎哎。。。
又想不工作， 回家看孩子。。。 很希望太太不工作，能在家看孩子。直到孩子大一些。。

3个星期前，送大女儿去幼儿园。。 逼不得已，她才2岁。。 唉唉。。
开始几天，她晚上都很难睡觉。 睡一下就醒来。。唉唉。。
然后， 就生病。。

之前，有带她去那幼儿园跑一跑。。
第二天， 就放她一个人。。 那天晚上就边睡边哭。。
第3天，陪她到那儿的老师关门为止。。 晚上又哭。。
之后，就生病了。。病了2天。。拜6 和礼拜。。

拜1， 就让他睡到下午才载她去幼儿园。。。又陪她到放学。。
拜2，岳母，太太，都说， 老师投诉我一直在那儿，阻碍了他们。。要我放了孩子就走。。孩子哭是正常的。 我做不到。。 不过，大女儿不再那么在意我的存在了。。 我才逃出外去。。 逗留了一下。。听大女儿不哭，才放心离开。。还好，那晚不再边睡边哭了。。
女儿开心，我也开心。。

过了1个星期，不小心在牵她手的时候， 她反抗，把她的手扭到了。。 手不能动。。 岳母，太太，都担心。。 我也担心，但，我知道，扭到，医生也不能做什么。。因为是拉到她的茎，只有等她自己复原。。 但，岳母和太太都要我带她去看医生。。。 唉唉。。。

还好是晚上。。 没医生。。 第2天，中午，她的手还没好。。他们又唠叨了。。。。。。
我又刚好没空。。下午，我回来， 她手以会动了。。岳母和太太才停了唠叨。。。
虽然， 我也担心的，但，知道担心没用。。知道医生也不能做什么。。除非， 还是那样，第3天才会带她去看医生。。

有时，就是觉得他们很好笑。。不关什么， 都去看医生。。 医生可不是神啊！！

有时，觉得这个家真的需要我。。但，我的工作。。。

昨天，太太说，明天女儿会去另一间幼儿园，因为那间有开幕礼。。全部人去那儿。。我真的担心，担心女儿会不习惯。。会一直哭。晚上又不能睡。。唉唉。。。

我很想回家看看女儿好吗。。太太，你能不工作， 在家看孩子吗？ 这样，我就不用把2 岁的女儿送去幼儿园了。。这样，我就不用太担心了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 能吗？？

好久好久没写写了。。

自从回家后，写华语成为奢侈的东西。。 写英文又写不出味道。。唉唉。。
最后， 终于忍不住下载了njstar 的 crack :<
我知道是不对。。。虽然， 是旧的njstar，。。。。 对不起，对不起。。。

50 yr Merdeka...

wanna to write a long message about this topic, but, aizz..busy leh... cant write long about what I think, what I feel... aizz..
Ok, I really feel that, our country have developed. Many village turn to city, many infrastructure had been build and bring benefit to all. But, if look closely to the politic, it have a trend that our nation turning from democratic to non-democratic nation. All media is effluent by politician who rule the nation now. So, no much the citizen about the real side of the nation. Many citizen who dunno about internet or even some know but not interest with politic also dunno what really have happen and what going on. All media just support BN.
Some news about the bad side also, that is just very limited reports. To be more Democratic, people need to know the true. But, BN is so afraid of people to know too much about the true. We already independent for 50 years, why they still think that we still cannot think rationally?? Is that means the effort that they put on education is fail?? All educated new generation still cannot think properly??
Really hope that in the future, we can have our media back to neutral. Not always 1 side down media. All only support BN, not support nation. Hope to have a bright future for next generation, not a bad future. Hope to see the trend go back to Democratic.

I am home..yeah...

am at home already.. yeah.. after about 2 weeks really busy work at work place...yeah, finally can go home and enjoy with my family..yahoo....
But, after reach home, my home computer cannot type Chinese Charater one, so, sorry to those who only understand Chinese.. Sorry.

I am not God...

Haizzz.. this few days, very very busy.. After 5 years working in this field, I thought that I am very very confident with myself. And this few days, I found that I am wrong. I still make mistake, mis-judge the situation and yet, cannot fight with the mother nature. I am fail to solve the problem that come from the mother nature of the earth...

It make me realize that, I not God, I still a human. Cannot fight with natural appear of the earth... Thanks God also for the failure that I made ..

14 岁就自杀..

看了这个新闻, 我很有感触. 到底为什么?? 这样年轻就自杀..难道这世上没有他值得留恋的东西??

Why no people comment on my blog..为什么没人来。。

hahahaha...poor me.. I keep checking my blog everyday, but, this few day, even busy, still check check, but, very disappointed.. no new comment.. then, only today check my Gmail (coz this is new account, I not use it for my work, so forgot to open it), then, found many many comment inside.. sweat to me. cause I change the setting and don't know the effect.. hahahaa... sorry to all who put comment and late publish. sorry.. cause I am newbie for blog mah... ;P

哈哈哈哈哈哈. 可怜的我, 我每天有看我自己的部落, 虽然我比较忙. 但,很失望, 没人来.. 今天,我开我的gmail （我的新付口， 工作时，没用。）, 才发现原来全在里面。。我真是的。。 我换了设置而不知道后果。。 哈哈哈。。 对不起，对不起。。 让你们的comment久等了。。 对不起。因我还是新手。。

忙忙忙。。busy busy busy...

最近很忙很忙。。忙到累。。
recently very very busy....tired.... too many thing change and need to work on it... that is my job, cannot complaint.... only work silence.. even though it is all out of the original planning... even though I already informed them before the thing happen.. even though they still do not want to listen and cause my plan all out of order... aizzz...but, that is my work.. quiet work only..